My birthday is usually a very low key event. I spend most of the day doing what I want, most of the time by myself, just relaxing and taking the day to de-stress. I don’t ask my friends or family to make a big deal of it. I’m more than content with a small dinner with a few of the closest people in my life. To me there is no topping that. It’s small and intimate and a huge show isn’t made of me.
This isn’t because I don’t think I’m worthy of a huge blow out event or parade, I’m awesome, and I deserve the best. However, that’s not who I am. I tend to shy away from attention, I keep to myself and I only open up to people after I’ve known them for a while. I’m just a private person.
So, it wasn’t at all odd for me to let my one year anniversary go and it isn’t until now, with some time for reflection, that I realize how many strides I’ve made in my life. I am more or less happier than I’ve been since elementary school, I’m certainly healthier than I’ve ever been, and I’m finding myself, becoming comfortable with every aspect of who I am. These are huge changes for me. I tend to block out my past, I forget the pain I was in and that tends to downplay how much better I am now because I lose a sense of accomplishment with nothing to base my progress on, which brings me to the point of this post. I have been Vegan for one year and two months. I repeat, I have been Vegan for one year and two months.
The adjustment was not hard. I’m not going to lie and say that it was. Throughout the year I did have some unintentional and somewhat intentional slip up’s but I’ve remained dedicated. I have my weak days where I am craving meat, just thinking about a roasted chicken or inch cut steak can shatter my will power but through all that, I have not touched the stuff. My slip ups have been with diary, and trust me I paid every time. But what is key for me is that I haven’t had an issue living my life that way I want to, I faced the adversity of naysayers and overcome them. Most importantly, I’ve remained dedicated to my commitment of remaining healthy and taking care of myself. This is because through the year and two months that I’ve been Vegan I’ve learnt to love who I am and to be unapologetic about it. I am not perfect but I’ve learnt to love my flaws and to improve on them when I can. I’ve learnt that I am strong, I have a voice, I’m worthy of love, I’m smart, I’m funny, I enjoy being healthy and challenging myself, I can accomplish anything I set my mind to and I’ve become one of the hardest workers I know.
And so, I am taking this post to brag. I’ve come a long way and I have an even longer journey ahead of me but I’m more prepared than I’ve ever been and I’m more driven that I ever thought I could be. While I am still going to keep my birthdays low key and my private life, well, private, and while I’m not ever going to be the outgoing, personable, people person that I used to wish I was, I am going to be true to myself and committed to what I want out of life.
Thank you to all of my friends who have stuck with me, both at home and back home, and thank you to all of the random people throughout the year who have made my day with a smile, a compliment, a friendly chat and your unselfish time. I appreciate all of you.
God, I’ve been Vegan for one year and two months. I am not who I was and I am not who I am going to be but I’m still in love with who I am.
The sap is over, the divulgence of my personal life is at a close, you can all go back to knowing me simply as Canadianwanker.